so, nothing. again. it didn't come as a shock. it was more like a brief spell of anger. 2, maybe 3 minutes max. i was thinking of the audacity and the hypocrisy, but, guess what? i expected it. it took way too long, my hopes were dashed even before i knew the truth.

so now, i have half a thing keeping me here, and a thousand reasons for me to leave. a chance in a dozen? i'll go.

the irony was, i'd get what i was hoping for. but it comes with a price. but that's the thing about difficult decisions, isn't it? the price to pay might be too much to bear, but the alternative always seems worse.

i lied. the anger is still there. but it's faded to something mild, or maybe worse - depending on how you look at it. cynicism. not much point in lots of things now is there? considering that lies have been used as a cover up.

whatever.



so what do you do when your dreams have come true? follow it, or turn and run?

posted by ellie at 5/25/2007 10:18:00 pm