loneliness,

is more than just having no one around you,
or being in a crowd but still feeling like an alien,
or even being unable to emotionally connect with the people around you.

it is knowing who the people you need around you at that moment are,
but not being able to be near them.

and to need to hug someone,
but can't.

posted by ellie at 6/07/2008 01:02:00 am

the wait. the uncertainty. patience was never really one of my virtues.

gotta find something new.

posted by ellie at 6/03/2008 03:07:00 pm

shocking. it has become chaotic overnight.
too much thoughts.
too much information / or lack thereof.
too many suggestions.
too many people.
too big.
too little time.
too ambitious.
too new.
too expensive.
too little experience.

and i'm just an audience, watching as the scene unravels.

*but waiting in anticipation.

it gets so exciting when something unexpected begin to take its form.

posted by ellie at 6/01/2008 10:31:00 pm