if you don't know...

what's the one thing i've been wishing hard for, which is not for myself,
where's the one place i want to explore,
what's the one thing i do when i'm angry,
what's the one incident in my past i wished never happened,
what are my views on friendship,
what characteristics present in a person that i respect the most,
where i want to go in a year's time,
what my dreams are,
what's my favourite colour,
who's the one person i go to when i have no one else,
why i like the stars,
or if i even like stars,
what i plan to accomplish at least once,
who's the one person i'd always back up,
what i like to do for fun,
what family means to me,
what i like to do when i have absolutely nothing to do,
who i am thinking of,

what are my views on love,


...at least one of the above with absolute certainty,

then you don't know me. what you know is what you perceive of me. an idealised version me.

i am not what you envision, if you don't know at least some of my innermost thoughts and feelings. i am not the perfect little girl. i don't want to be that perfect little girl.

and that's why i have my ultimate dream.


i need my space.


i need to be able to be me. no strings attached.

posted by ellie at 11/16/2006 11:17:00 pm