it shouldnt be this bad. or this difficult. how can you be forced to control something which is way beyond your control? to solve problems you never knew existed? to find the solutions which you have no access to? not because you are incapable. but because to even begin would mean that you would first have to lose everything you hold dear. even to the extend of who you truly are.

but you are forced to. what then?



blocking out these things take so much effort.

posted by ellie at 11/12/2005 03:06:00 pm