a part of me feels hollow. empty. numb.

no reason why i felt such. then again, i seem to cease to feel. no joy. no sorrow. no opinions whatsoever.

i don't trust myself anymore. it's difficult. try going through life un-trusting.

my actions do not reflect what i feel. i hide myself too well till i hardly know me anymore. everyone else does though. i meant know me. not themselves. i haven't known me for a very long time. i act too well. yet i can hardly act.

no wonder i'm always a neutral party. i feel zilch for anyone.

posted by ellie at 2/17/2005 02:15:00 pm