i'm finding myself trapped in a hole i can't get out of. i never realised i was sucked into the hole in the first place. afterall, i pride myself in my ability to shut my feelings albeit the strong feelings i may feel. however, i just realised that i when i least expect it, i do things my heart tells me to but not my mind. i feel things i should not and do not want to feel. i guess there are stronger emotions to be felt. sucked in. daftly, i was sucked in.but i learnt a lesson the hard way. it takes a lot out of a person to control one's emotions. it's such a pity that i don't have the energy to control mine.

you can try reading me like an open book. but do you understand what you are reading? are you reading between the lines as opposed to just having a vague understanding of the words that forms the sentences? do you comprehend it all? i guess not. i hope not. i don't want you to. yet i know you might. if i even know you at all.

posted by ellie at 3/11/2005 12:15:00 pm